A NTU's Student's Life

*SIGH.. Was being put aeroplane.. Stuck in NTU and now watching Shaman King Re-runs. With the kuku laughter guy cracking lameo jokes. Juz the whole day from 2pm till now i have only done 2 freaking tutorials - CA & AE question 1. Sucks. I am so crapy at this. But the Big Final Exam is only in 1 month's time, No time to think about the past. Gotta clean my room and toilet too. Sucks with all the haze + Dust i probably will get sick soon.

There was a phrase that i saw on tv - " The more i get to know people, the more i Love Dogs."
It is so true especially when everybody around you juz wan to do well and outshine each other, friends become nothing. The best thing in life is to rely on yourself, so upon failure, u can improve. If u put ur hopes on others, there only will be much regret and blame. Maybe a life-partner will be a gd start, as there are so many things i would want to rant about but yet there are certain restrictions to what i can say due to the amount of people viewing my blog.

The momentum is here - i noe it as i have never studied so hard in my life. It has become such a pain that i juz wan to find a hiding place, there is no one true anymore, everyone befriends somebody juz for the benefits they can reap - an awful fact of life. I really hope to get out of the vicious circle. Maybe if only people dun work in the same place or meet everyday, the relationship/friendship will become better as there is no such thing call a friendly struggle. "There can only be one."

Sounds of the road thru the window still,
I sit at my beside thinking of you.
Wondering how Life would be,
If I took the risk and be free.
Showing concern & Trust,
yet what i face is being betrayed,
They why do i feel this sense of shame?
The pain inflicited is always the same,
i juz willing fall into the bottomles pit.
Sobing quitely as i stare into the hazy moonlight,
I hope everthing will end tonight.

~ To Gain Something, you will first have to learn to give up something else. (Alchemist Law)