Death of the EEE NTU-cians..

Dear citizens of NTU,





this post is dedicatded to all the people studying in NTU EEE. Please try your best not to take quizzes on the last few days of the week. It can kill.

As usual, i have this ample time to blog is due to the fact that i am working at the library once again. My blog is near dead, (unlike others which is very much burried in the ground like since 4ever) i have become detached from my social life. Once again, i have not been invited to karaoke. Probably is due to my corny voice? LOL.. 100% is due to my quizzes (excuses for those who forgot me). Luckily soon kiat didn't go, cause i would have resented him as i felt like shit all this time. hopefully i would do much better at this friday's quiz, unlike my atrocious AC (which i failed - 40% only) and semi (so unable to do & study due to unforseen circumstances... like failing of AC) Things dun always go the way you think. Thinking isn't bad, it is just delusional. It affects our thinking so greatly that can either propluse us to greater heights or spiral towards destruction.

I feel greatful for one thing though -- i have many great friends/buddies/big brother & sisters/ seniorswho have helped me greatly through my course of NTU. This may seem like a last testimonial to my impending DOOM. NoT.. still too many food i have not tried. :)


I regret that i should have done better and feel remoseful that after all the help that haven been decreeded to me, i am still unable to perform. GomeNasai~ Tai, mooky san. watashiwa Failure desu.


Maybe my buddies at the airforce are "not disturbing" me due to my quiz but i rather hope they did. It is a stress reliver for me, really big one. There is a major change going on in my life and yet the only person whom i can talk to - i can't find due to the fact that he has his own "dai chi". Credits to Liwen though, for helping my relif stress last sunday through playing ELAN with me. Though it was shagged, i really felt a little motivated to study as i "HAVE HAD" played.


Still after all this time. i still couldn't get use to failure, being a F**King failure i am. I have no traits like korkor to cover up my shamed futile atempts to struggle for victory; yet i am always seemd to be bragging about my achievements, living in the past. Congrats to Kopi for finding a partner too.

Things happened to fast and quickly. i just hope kor kor comes back from america fast. I miss him.. ALOT.. i think i am one person in the world who can never live alone. i need support. I need company. I am scared of being alone. Yet i dun have time in this world to make this freindship blossom. Maybe it is just as predicted i am a faliure. This insuination is really getting into my head... Zzzz.. As i always tell mooky :"If anything happens to me, tell my mama i love her. :)" My father doesn't need to hear the words, as he still has my brothers. i am easily replaceable.. ( nehy~ kenny tan is so right)

My headches i got from secondary 2 seems to be coming back. i want to somehow live in another world, develop some special abilities and leave everything behind to start something anew.. which is impossible now. Maybe, just maybe, when my limit break has attained, i will morph to another personality - Good or Bad we will know till then.

~ Humans are versatile creatures, they are able to adapt to the changing surrondings and will do anything through any means to survive. Killing will always be an option. ~